Festival of Homiletics 2020, Virtual Edition, Days Two and Three:Certain Uncertainty

Because of work responsibilities I am only getting a partial experience of the Festival in this “almost” experience. But even if I could hang on every spoken word, I would still be getting only a partial experience. One of the elements of the Festival experience is gathering together with colleagues from all over the world into a shared space and hearing the sound of 1,500 voices singing the great hymns of the faith, and leaning into the proclaimed word, caught up in the Spirit that moves through. Sitting up here in the spare room, the “room of requirement” that can become whatever we need it to be, except that it can’t become the cathedral like sanctuary of Peachtree Road United Methodist Church, which is where we were supposed to have been. 

Still, I don’t want to moan too much. A little moaning is OK, isn’t it? But not too much. And I have to give credit to the organizers, they are trying really hard to capture the moment as best they can. And there have been some good sermons in this unusual setting, some good conversations and some amazing music. And maybe that’s what we need right now. Almost. Something that speaks of what was, what we remember together, and also recognizes that everything has changed. 

Day Two began with the Rev. Otis Moss III preaching in his empty sanctuary in Chicago about the Certain Uncertainty. He too, like many of us, is almost done hearing “these uncertain times.” And yet, what better description can there be about the life of the follower of Jesus? Everything is uncertain, except the certainty of the presence of the One we follow. And in the end, that is enough. What we need, Moss declares is to look beyond the frame. To look for the support that stands with us. Here the camera he was using pulled back and revealed his wife sitting in the pew next to him. We lean into the support of the God who calls us, but we feel it in the people around us. Who is supporting you, who is praying you through, who is just out of the frame and on your side? In the certain uncertainty, we need to remember those who brought us to where we are.

I was in and out yesterday and didn’t catch all of anything else. But I heard parts of Dr. Ellen Davis, biblical scholar from Duke University, talking about “Telling the Truth: Ungodly Facts, Real Power, and Holy Fear.” Dr. Davis’s thesis was reminding us of the Exodus event, and how Moses was called to speak truth to power, even at the risk of his life, and the fear that his own people had when he chose to do that. Sometimes, slavery seems safer than the risk of resistance. Sometimes, the destruction of the world is safer than the risk of changing a way of life so that life may continue.

I caught most of Dr. Joy Moore’s sermon titled “Breathless Anticipation.” Her sermon was based on Romans 8, reminding us what a shocking statement Paul made when he said “the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing to the glory about to be revealed to us.” Which was immediately followed by “Creation waits with eager longing for the revealing of the children of God.” The breathless anticipation is because of the great need, the great suffering that all of creation endures, while it hopes for the people of God to finally understanding stewardship of all that is. The glory is not just the someday of the coming new age, the Kingdom, or Kin-dom as many of us are now naming it. But it is in the translation of this world to that one. It is in the rescuing for what the world has been and can be, once we stop our mad dash toward destruction. Creation waits for us to be who God calls us to be.

Dr. Leah Schade was the subject of an interview in the next time slot. I got to hear a part of it before having to go to yet another zoom call. I met Leah at a conference last December, she made a presentation of her major work, “Preaching in the Purple Zone.” The purple zone is trying to walk the middle of our great national divide between the red and the blue, attempting to speak into this polarity and be heard. Or better yet, let the gospel be heard. 

I came back in time to hear Grace Kelly sing and play us out. Grace has been a part of the Festival before, and I remember being amazed at her talent and heart. She is a jazz saxophonist and singer of blues and jazz. And she’s Asian American. Sometimes it’s like I am looking at Maddie sing the blues. It seems incongruous on the one hand, but oh so amazing on the other. Grace sings and plays of a spirit that connects, that teaches love, risks loving. It was a beautiful ending to day two.

Day three was even more sketchy than the previous. We had an all staff meeting a Discipleship Ministries in the morning and then an all programming staff meeting in the afternoon. So, I missed a lot today. I did, however, hear a sermon for Olu Brown, a pastor from Atlanta who planted a church near the airport and somehow managed to grow it into a multi site church and now online church with a reach in the multiple thousands. Oddly enough, tomorrow the Worship Team is recording a podcast with Olu about the use of technology in worship. 

His sermon was titled Imagine, based on the end of the book of Revelation, Olu was asking us to not let our imagination sit on the sidelines as we work toward what Christ as promised for all of creation. To not settle for what is but continue to long for what can be, what might be, what God intends for each person. Too often we are apt to say, that’s just the way things are. And have stopped asking why are they this way? And why are we content with this? Whether we’re talking about our own lives, our human community or the condition of the planet as a whole, we need to imagine a better reality, a more God-breathed reality. Don’t stop imagining.

Then I was able to hear most of Karoline Lewis’s lecture on leading with the sermon. Preaching, she argues, as do many others (I’ve even been know to talk about this when I teach) that the sermon is not just a Sunday morning moment of uplift or inspiration, but a way of shepherding the flock into becoming the body of Christ. Much of what she shared I knew, and yet it was good to hear it outlined the way she did. My only problem was that she started by saying she had 8 elements of the sermon as leadership, but I only got 7. So now I’ll have to wait until the recording is publish in a few weeks to find number 8.

Then I was caught up in office stuff, and managed to come back in time to catch most of the closing music and worship experience led by a group called “The Many.” I was amazed at what they were doing, able to do in this disconnected medium. They sang and they prayed and they even shared in a few minutes a meditation that took my breath away in its simplicity and grace. I hope to learn more about The Many, and I’ll let you know.  

Shalom,

Derek

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Festival of Homiletics 2020, Virtual Event, Day One: Almost Bent Over

Well, here I am at the Festival of Homiletics, 2020. I’m not alone this time. Dora, the upstairs cat, is sleeping on the pile of boxes next to her window here in the room of requirement in #S303 here on Sawyer Brown Road, Nashville TN. Yeah, like so many other things this year, the in person Festival was canceled and replaced with this virtual edition. So, I’m up here in my home office, which sounds like an awfully grandiose title for the spare room. Or the comic book room, because that is where the comic books reside. And the room of family genealogy papers that La Donna is working her way through. All of which is why we call it “The Room of Requirement.” For the non-Harry Potter fans out there, it is the room where what you need to have happen, happens. So, since mid-March, it has been where my computer and books reside so I can do whatever I need to do for Discipleship Ministries. 

This week what I am doing is attending the virtual Festival of Homiletics. As well as various other things that work requires. That’s the problem with not going away, you end up trying to it all. So, I’ll miss some of the Festival, while I maintain my virtual presence as a part of the Worship Team, and the larger Strategic Programming Team, and the Discipleship Ministries Team. It’s hard to keep all those things in motion all at once. Especially in “these difficult times.”

That is the subtext of everything happening at the Festival this year. The theme is “Preaching a New Earth: Climate and Creation.” But the pandemic has focused the thinking and acting and the whole structure of the event. We’re scaled down this year, no overlapping or concurrent events, we’re not starting at 8am and ending at 7 or 8pm. Instead we’re “live at 12noon Eastern time and we end at 4pm with some music. Today, for example, after an opening welcome we had a sermon by Rev. Traci Blackmon/worship experience, a lecture on Christians and Climate Change by Climate Scientist Katherine Hayhoe, then a talk on Genesis in reverse, or undoing creation by Bill McKibben, an interview with Bishop William Willimon, and music by Ashley Cleveland. That’s Day One. Seems like a lot, but it is a light day for the Festival. Trust me on this.

But, I have to give credit to the organizers who have been scrambling for these past few months to figure out what and how. It was still a significant event. The beginning of a significant event. 

The Rev. Traci Blackmon serves as pastor in the UCC and also is the Executive Director of Justice and Local Church Ministries. Think about that for a moment. Justice and Local Church Ministries. I don’t think, or rather I hope that isn’t two different jobs cobbled together. But rather a denominational position. Justice and Local Church Ministries. Justice isn’t something that happens somewhere else, by people apart from the functioning of the local church. No, justice is what the local church is about. What the local church does. And Rev. Blackmon says it begins by seeing. Her text was Luke 13:10-17, the woman bent over whom Jesus heals on the Sabbath causing all sort of conniptions amongst the people of power. Blackmon points out that this woman didn’t come to be healed. She was just coming to the synagogue. Coming for prayers. Coming to make her offering. She doesn’t come with a request. She is bent over, has been for 18 years - and there isn’t any indication of her age, we assume elderly because bone density and curvature of the spine is an affliction of some in the old age, but she might have been this way from birth, maybe she was 18 years old and didn’t know any life but this bent one. We don’t know. But she might have been there, worshiping beside us for years, and we knew it, we know her, but we don’t see her. That’s Blackmon’s point. The bent ones among us, the ones burdened by the injustice of this world, the one’s carrying this society’s burden of not being the majority, not being the right race, the right gender, the right ethnicity, the right economic class, she and they are bent over trying to carry all that has been piled on them, all that has been thrown at them and we don’t even see them. By choice, often. We don’t want to see them. Because seeing them might carry responsibility to do something, to heal something, to bring justice. 

That’s why workers of justice in our society want us to know the names of those who are bent over by injustice, those broken, the Ahmaud Arberys and the Breonna Taylors, and the Atatiana Jeffersons and so many others who have become statistics and not people who are bent over in our society. Jesus healed her because He saw her. Not because she asked, not because she “deserved” it more than any others, but because He saw her. Can we do less than to see those around us. In part because we hope someone will see us when we are bent over.

Like those who hope we will see a world bent over, in need of healing. I missed Dr. Hayhoe’s lecture, but I heard Bill McKibben speak about an issue that he has spent most of his life trying to get people to see. The earth is bent over, he argues, has been for years. And, he claims, everyone knows it. Even those most at fault, the oil companies and fossil fuel companies, who have known for years the impact of their industy on the planet. They’ve made some changes in what they do, not to halt the devastation or to lessen their impact, but to ensure that they can keep making money. One example, they raised the level of their oil drilling platforms off-shore to account for the rising sea levels that they predicted decades ago. 

Frankly it was hard to listen to Bill. You could hear the despair in his voice, the fear that we will continue not to see, to want to sustain our lifestyle to such an extent that the world we give to our children and grandchildren will not be able to sustain life. Will we see? That’s the question that Bill McKibben is asking us. Will we see what’s bent over around us?

Bishop Willimon talked with Karoline Lewis, who is the host of the event from Luther Seminary in Minneapolis. The subject was preaching in this difficult moment. And let me sum up the Bishop’s advice, listen to God. He says we need to turn back to the Word and hear what God has been saying to God’s people about who is in charge and who isn’t. Sometimes it isn’t our innovation that is called for but our confession and our surrender. Then maybe we can stop thinking we’re in charge, and let God direct our eyes to see who is bent over.

Ashley Cleveland echoed that with two of my favorites from her repertoire, God Don’t Never Change, and Keep Your Lamps Trimmed and Burning. May we indeed! 

Shalom,

Derek

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Disappointed by Hope

I’ve written about my favorite week of the year in this space before. No, not family vacation or holidays of any sort. It is not the usual kinds of weeks that many of us look forward to. No, this one is strictly mine. Well, mine and almost two thousand others. It is the week of the Festival of Homiletics. A week full of preachers preaching and preaching teachers talking about preaching and sometimes teachers preaching and preachers teaching, with some music and liturgy thrown in just for good measure. It is as close to heaven as a preaching geek like me could ever hope for.  I found it almost 20 years ago and have been going faithfully every year since. I even had to miss a birthday or two along the way, since it always falls around Maddie’s birthday. Which was Saturday, by the way, May 16th, she turned 25 this year. Not quite sure how that happened. Soon she’ll be older than me. Somehow. Anyway, the Festival falls between Maddie’s birthday and my anniversary. Well, our anniversary, since I am pretty sure La Donna was there too. Which is next Sunday, May 24th. Forty years this year, wow. Not quite sure how that happened either. Soon our marriage will be older than I am. Somehow. 

I was all signed up, paid my fee, was supposed to be in Atlanta right now waiting for the event to start. But no, here I am, sitting at home, here in Nashville. Oh, sure, like so many other things, they aren’t canceling the Festival, it is just going to become virtual. Remember when virtual used to mean almost? Well, it sort of kinda does still. I know it means online these days. But it also kinda feels like almost. We’re almost going to have a Festival this year. Almost. I’ll hear some of the preachers, and I’ll be a part of the worship, from a distance. Almost. But because I’m here, in my virtual office, I’ll also have work things to do. Zoom calls and projects to complete, a podcast to record and a virtual meeting about a preaching teaching series I’m going to do. So it won’t be the same. I will get access, because I was already registered and paid, to the recorded sessions of the Festival, so even though I’ll have to miss some of it, I won’t miss any of it, almost. 

But it won’t be the same. You see, while the heart and soul of the Festival for me has always been the words spoken, proclaimed really, and the opportunity to hear from some of the most incredible preachers in the mainline tradition and variety of cultures and approaches, all of which will be captured as best as possible through the virtual medium employed; that has never been the whole story. Or indeed what it is that brings me back year after year. There was something deeper, more profound going on in me and those who gathered year after year. 

Ministry is hard. I won’t say harder than other jobs, because every job has struggles and difficulties along the way. But one of the things that makes ministry and preaching in particular difficult is that you often are told in a variety of ways that you are wasting your time. And worse, wasting their time, those who come to listen. That’s often why preachers want to come up with simple tips on how to live a good life. Do these three things, follow those five rules, observe these 7 traits and you’ll be right with God. You’ll be assured of your salvation. You’ll have your ticket to heaven, or a better life, or all the answers. If we just read the Bible right, we preachers think, we can decode the tips, the steps, the elements of the life that Jesus led. And by golly, we find them. And they work. Until they don’t. Until we find the next set of things. The next tips on living. 

We do this, we tell ourselves, because it is what the people want. All the popular preachers do it. They make life, they make faith, they make following Jesus sound so easy. And fun! So, we all look for the five fun things that we can give to the people on a fill-in-the-blank bulletin insert and feel like we’ve done our job. Except that even while we do it, week after week, we have this nagging suspicion that it isn’t working. It isn’t what we’re supposed to do. It isn’t what is going to give people life. And we don’t know what to do. 

Then sometimes, we are beaten down. Directly or indirectly, told by churches that we aren’t doing our job, we aren’t making them happy, we aren’t leading them in the directions they want to go. We’re told we’re failing because we haven’t found the magic program or worship style or seat cushions that will make our church grow like the mega-church on the edge of town.  And we begin to investigate other career opportunities. 

It was in one of those moments that I found the Festival. Those “beaten down, what are you doing with your life” moments. And I went, not expecting much, except for the chance to be away and not feel too guilty about being gone. What I found, however, was a reminder that the Word matters. It matters in the world because it gives us a sense of the presence of God. The Word, which at one time, put on flesh and walked around among us, with skin on, and eyes to see and spit that made mud and tears that flowed and hands that held and a mouth that spoke. It spoke, that Word on two legs. It spoke and it told stories and it called followers and it made riddles and shared history and it challenged and threatened and comforted and loved, but it never once explained everything. Even when the gospel writers said the Word with a mouth explained everything, to the followers, if you listen carefully you’ll realize nothing was explained. There is no road map, no virtual GPS that will get you through the tough times. There are no three steps or five or seven steps to an easy life, in fact the Word that talked said if your life is easy you’re doing it wrong. 

On Great Performances this past week, PBS broadcast the 2019 Ravinia Festival’s production of Leonard Bernstein’s Mass. It was originally written for the opening of the Kennedy Center in Washington DC in 1971. It was controversial then and still is today. Some love it, and some hate it. I’ve always loved it. It is about faith and about doubt and about how they live side by side in an uneasy relationship. It doesn’t provide answers, it barely offers hope. Bernstein, of course, was Jewish, but he was writing in honor John F. Kennedy, the only Catholic President in our history. The central figure is a priest and his journey through this show is too complex to outline here. But he too, travels through faith and doubt and hope. 

In the middle of the opera there is a song titled “The Word of the Lord.”  

"For the Word, / for the Word was at the birth of the beginning, / it made the heavens and the earth and set them spinning. / And for several million years, / it withstood all our quorums and fine ideas. / It’s been rough, / it’s been rough but it appears to be winning.”

And 

"For the Word, / for the Word created mud and got it going. / It filled our empty brains with blood and set it flowing. / And for thousands of regimes, / it endured all our follies and fancy schemes. / It’s been tough, / it’s been tough and yet it seems to be growing. // Oh you people of power, / oh you people of power, your power is now. / You may plan to go forever but you never do somehow. // So you wait in silent treason until reason is restored, / and we wait for the season of the Word of the Lord. We await the season of the Word of the Lord. / We wait, / we wait for the Word of the Lord.”

This song seems to be a pivot around which the whole show revolves. I’m not a music critic, I may be wrong. But I am a preacher and this seems to be the ground which holds us, even when things get shaky. We don’t have the answers, but we have the hope. We have the faith. We have confidence in the Word, even when we don’t understand it.  

Romans 5:1-5 Therefore, since we are justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2 through whom we have obtained access to this grace in which we stand; and we boast in our hope of sharing the glory of God. 3 And not only that, but we also boast in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, 4 and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, 5 and hope does not disappoint us, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit that has been given to us.

I am disappointed that I won’t be going to the Festival this year. But I know it is the right thing. And I have hope that the Word still matters. Even during a pandemic. Maybe especially so. I’ll share whatever insights I glean from the almost Festival this year, so watch for that. In the meantime, I am not disappointed by hope, while I wait for the Word of the Lord.

Shalom, 

Derek

Latest Last Chance

Online shopping has been convenient, and necessary during these days of the pandemic. I also enjoy online looking and not buying, just to see what is out there. The problem with all that looking is that you get on the email lists, even from the ones you don’t give out your email! Not only that, but you look at something online once and then your browser ads are full of that same item immediately. How do they do that? No, wait, I don’t think I want to know.

The problem with being on everyone’s email list is that you get flooded with requests, requests? No more like demands, to buy. More and more, the same stuff that you already bought, or the companion pieces. Like Amazon’s helpful little “purchasers of this usually also got that!” line. Oh, really, you think? Then maybe I ought to have that too. Maybe. But probably not. Or as my wife would say, definitely not. 

The one that really has been getting under my skin lately though are the ones that declare “Last Chance!” Last chance to save a lot of money, for example, but only by spending a lot more money. Last chance to get this unique item that we only have a few million of. Last chance before the price goes up. Last chance before everyone has one and we’re on to the next thing that you’ll get a last chance to purchase. I’ve got a couple of them that send me a last chance on an almost daily basis. It’s wearing me out.

You can’t help when you’re inundated with last chances to hear something ultimate in that. Something apocalyptic even. Last chance. It’s all over. It’s the end. Our minds go there, don’t they? Too often really. We are obsessed, as a culture, with the end. How many post-apocalyptic movies have we seen in our lifetime? How many dystopian novels have we read? Is this really our last chance? Is this the end of all that we know? 

You’ve seen, no doubt, the conspiracy theories running rampant in some branches of the Christian community. Conspiracy and end times pronouncements are getting a lot of play, going viral in this time of fears of the virus. I’ve never really understood the fascination. Or the fear-mongering. There are some interesting psychological analyses that I’ve read recently as to why people get caught up in conspiracy theories and end time prognostications. You can look it up yourselves, if you’re really interested. But the one bit of information that I gleaned from that research is that argument won’t fix it. You can’t reason someone out of a conspiracy theory. You can’t give them enough information that will change their minds. So, don’t bother.

So, what do we do? How do we refute them, or avoid them, or ignore them? You can’t really. I wish you could. Just like opting out of email lists doesn’t guarantee you won’t get email telling you this is your last chance anymore. Believe me, I’ve tried. But then why? Why can’t we avoid them, the end time pronouncements? Because Jesus did it.

Matthew 24:32-44 "From the fig tree learn its lesson: as soon as its branch becomes tender and puts forth its leaves, you know that summer is near. 33 So also, when you see all these things, you know that he is near, at the very gates. 34 Truly I tell you, this generation will not pass away until all these things have taken place. 35 Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will not pass away. 36 "But about that day and hour no one knows, neither the angels of heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father. 37 For as the days of Noah were, so will be the coming of the Son of Man. 38 For as in those days before the flood they were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, until the day Noah entered the ark, 39 and they knew nothing until the flood came and swept them all away, so too will be the coming of the Son of Man. 40 Then two will be in the field; one will be taken and one will be left. 41 Two women will be grinding meal together; one will be taken and one will be left. 42 Keep awake therefore, for you do not know on what day your Lord is coming. 43 But understand this: if the owner of the house had known in what part of the night the thief was coming, he would have stayed awake and would not have let his house be broken into. 44 Therefore you also must be ready, for the Son of Man is coming at an unexpected hour.

Sometimes I wonder why Jesus said things like this. Surely He knew that His followers would just go nutzo with this kind of thing. Surely He knew that it would cause dissension and division and distraction by parts of the church to come. Surely. Yet, He did it, and kept doing it. This is only one of the times when Jesus spoke like this. What exactly did He want us to do with this information? Be afraid? Spend our lives looking over our shoulder? Certainly not share it with an air of superiority or condemnation to the world around us? Yet, that’s what many people do. Are doing. Blaming. Pointing fingers. Getting angry.

I think there are mainly two reasons why this kind of thing was shared by our Lord. And both of them are about keeping us humble. The first reason is to remind us that we don’t know everything. Or to put it another way, we aren’t in control. It has always astounded me that here we have Jesus, the founder of our faith, the incarnate God walking among us, saying “I don’t know when this is going to happen” and there have been people and are people saying “I know!” It just seems to me that saying you know more than Jesus is the highest form of arrogance. To claim that you’ve been given knowledge that Jesus didn’t even get is a heresy that we should avoid. Jesus says, I don’t know and implies that you don’t need to know. So, quit trying to figure it out.

But then, He does say keep watch. Isn’t that a call to figure it out? No, I don’t think so. I think it is a call to pay attention. Pay attention to the world around you and the work before you. Pay attention to whether what you are doing is Kingdom work or selfish work. Pay attention to the opportunities you have to let God’s grace flow through you, so that a little bit of the Kin-dom (I love that phrase that we’re using. Kingdom values imply the inter-relationship of all creation, we are longing for a Kin-dom) can shine through you.

I always loved the story, whether it really happened or not, of a conversation St. Francis of Assisi had one day as he was hoeing his beans. A pilgrim came upon the saint in the garden and called out to him. “Francis,” he said, “what would you do if you realized this was your last day on earth?” Francis paused a moment and wiped his brow. Then he picked up his hoe and went back to work. “I would continue hoeing this row of beans,” he said over his shoulder.

I don’t think this is really our last chance. Last chance as a nation, as a stable economy, as the people we are becoming. But even if it is, maybe we ought to just keep hoeing our beans. What Jesus was asking us to do, I think, was to stop worrying about the end, it’s not in our hands anyway, and we can trust the One in whose hands it resides. But to keep hoeing our beans trusting that what we do matters. And if it doesn’t matter, don’t do it. Do what we can, as we can and walk with God in all that we do. 

Just keep hoeing your beans. To the glory of God.

Shalom, 

Derek

That They Might Have Lifestyle

How is everyone? Seriously. I’m wondering. If you want to comment here, or email me. Remember if you are one of those who receives this by email, if you hit reply it goes to everyone. Which might not be a bad thing. Unless everyone responds and some folks feel overwhelmed by the emails. But I really want to know. I promise to check the blog for comments, I promise to respond to your email. I just want to know how you’re doing.

We watched the “One World: Together At Home” concert event last night. We heard amazing stories, terrifying and wonderful stories. There were moments of tears and worry, alongside those of hope and amazement at the compassion of people. We know many folks in the medical profession and are worried about them. But then we also know folks in the food industry of all kinds (grocery, restaurants, farms), and those who deliver packages and mail, child-care workers, and service workers of all kinds. We know those who are suffering and those who are worried about the future, we know those who are safe and doing their best to follow the rules (anyone else tired of washing hands so much?). We know of those who have contracted the virus, those who have succumbed to it, and those whose lives will never be the same because of it. And we are concerned, but hopeful. We have faith.  Faith in the goodness of people. Faith in the strength of our humanity. Faith in decision-makers and leaders, scientists and researchers who are working for the good of all and not just for some. Most of all we have faith in God. God is with us. God’s body the church is with us even when the doors are closed. The church was never a building anyway, we just got confused at times. We love our buildings, but they aren’t the church. If there is one thing this time is reminding us, confirming in us it is that the church is more than a building.

We are the church. You are the church. Claim it and live it in whatever ways you can right now. And remember, as I and too many others have said, we do what we not just to keep ourselves safe, but for the safety of others. We do this because we were taught to love by the One who loves us unto death and rose from the grave out of love for us. So, how can we do otherwise? How can we not love one another as He loved us?

It’s easy to be frustrated. It is easy to think that this is all an overreaction. That, sure, a few might get sick and a few might even die from this, but the risks we take by this shut down are worse. We are, some have said, killing our lifestyle to save a few lives. The protests to open up the economy are making that argument. We want to save our lifestyle. 

No one appreciates our lifestyle more than I do. I like the stuff I have, I like the freedom that I have to just go and get something that I want, whether I really need it or not. I like having enough money in the bank so that I won’t worry about the future when I retire. I like the benefits and the privileges I have here. I really do. But, who am I willing to sacrifice in order to keep it?  Because that’s the culmination of the argument being made. Some lives are worth sacrificing in order to keep our lifestyle. 

Wait, some will say, we make sacrifices all the time. Someone, a “Doctor” with only one name, went on TV and pointed out that we don’t shut the country down because of the car fatalities, or the cigarette fatalities. He’s right, we don’t. But then as far as I know car accidents aren’t communicable. You can’t spread them by breathing. On the other hand, we have shut down certain facilities to smoking, and there were those who complained saying we were going to ruin the economy by declaring no smoking zones. But we decided that life was more important than lifestyle. So, we lost the smoke filled rooms, good riddance. We adapted, we adjusted. There’s a pub in our neighborhood that everyone was worried about, said it was a shame that it had to close. But now they are so busy we couldn’t place an order for take out. We adapt, we adjust. 

Because we believe life is more important than lifestyle. Someone taught us that. Here’s another of my favorite passages: John 10.

John 10:9-16  I am the gate. Whoever enters by me will be saved, and will come in and go out and find pasture. 10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly. 11 "I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep. 12 The hired hand, who is not the shepherd and does not own the sheep, sees the wolf coming and leaves the sheep and runs away-- and the wolf snatches them and scatters them. 13 The hired hand runs away because a hired hand does not care for the sheep. 14 I am the good shepherd. I know my own and my own know me, 15 just as the Father knows me and I know the Father. And I lay down my life for the sheep. 16 I have other sheep that do not belong to this fold. I must bring them also, and they will listen to my voice. So there will be one flock, one shepherd.

“I have come that they might have lifestyle,” no, wait, that’s not it. Oh, I know He says “abundant life.” And our image of abundant life is all the stuff we could want. But I don’t think that’s what He meant. I think He was offering us a life that meant something, to us and to everyone else. A life that was rich in love, that was spent in service not because it was what we were supposed to do, but because we couldn’t help it. Helping, serving, loving, caring just flows out of our heart like streams of living water. It isn’t what we do it is what we are. We are the ones who believe that life matters. Life, not lifestyle. We believe that all life matters.

“I have sheep that do not belong to this fold.” You’ve noticed that, haven’t you? Yeah, He meant the Baptists down the road.  He meant the Lutherans and Presbyterians, He meant all those who are just like us with a different label. Right? Maybe. But I don’t think so. I think He meant the ones we would least expect. The ones living in a care facility where a stray virus can run through like a tsunami. The ones struggling to breathe, carrying around oxygen in a tank, hooked up to tubes to bring air. He meant the ones who can’t shelter at home because they don’t have a home. He meant the ones who are crowded into inadequate housing, gathered into home unequipped to care for them, to feed them, to love them, or keep them safe. He meant the ones dumped into refugee camps and prisons and ships at sea. He meant the ones have suddenly become “essential” and yet still don’t make enough money to feed their children. He meant the ones across the globe who look to us to set an example of what it means to love our neighbor as ourselves. Those are the sheep of other folds. Sheep we may never see, may never love in person, and yet by choosing to do all we can, all we can including sacrificing some of our lifestyle, in order to love we bear witness that life is more precious than lifestyle. 

There are supposed shepherds who are running away because the wolf is at the door. Let’s admit it. So, let’s look to another shepherd. One who invites us to value life. Not just our lives, but life. (I wonder how many of those protesters at various statehouses also call themselves “pro-life”) I love too many people who are vulnerable to say we’re ready to go back to our lifestyle as we knew it. In fact, I would venture to say we will never go back. But we will go forward and live differently because of what we have learned and how we value life. We go forward and maybe even begin to understand what abundant life really means.  

And maybe that’s what we’re learning right now. Thanks be to God. And really, how are you?

Shalom, 

Derek

Living in Saturday

John 19:39-42 Nicodemus, who had at first come to Jesus by night, also came, bringing a mixture of myrrh and aloes, weighing about a hundred pounds. 40 They took the body of Jesus and wrapped it with the spices in linen cloths, according to the burial custom of the Jews. 41 Now there was a garden in the place where he was crucified, and in the garden there was a new tomb in which no one had ever been laid. 42 And so, because it was the Jewish day of Preparation, and the tomb was nearby, they laid Jesus there.

Luke 23:50-56 Now there was a good and righteous man named Joseph, who, though a member of the council, 51 had not agreed to their plan and action. He came from the Jewish town of Arimathea, and he was waiting expectantly for the kingdom of God. 52 This man went to Pilate and asked for the body of Jesus. 53 Then he took it down, wrapped it in a linen cloth, and laid it in a rock-hewn tomb where no one had ever been laid. 54 It was the day of Preparation, and the sabbath was beginning. 55 The women who had come with him from Galilee followed, and they saw the tomb and how his body was laid. 56 Then they returned, and prepared spices and ointments. On the sabbath they rested according to the commandment.

Mark 15:43-47 Joseph of Arimathea, a respected member of the council, who was also himself waiting expectantly for the kingdom of God, went boldly to Pilate and asked for the body of Jesus. 44 Then Pilate wondered if he were already dead; and summoning the centurion, he asked him whether he had been dead for some time. 45 When he learned from the centurion that he was dead, he granted the body to Joseph. 46 Then Joseph bought a linen cloth, and taking down the body, wrapped it in the linen cloth, and laid it in a tomb that had been hewn out of the rock. He then rolled a stone against the door of the tomb. 47 Mary Magdalene and Mary the mother of Joses saw where the body was laid.

Matthew 27:62-65 The next day, that is, after the day of Preparation, the chief priests and the Pharisees gathered before Pilate 63 and said, "Sir, we remember what that impostor said while he was still alive, 'After three days I will rise again.' 64 Therefore command the tomb to be made secure until the third day; otherwise his disciples may go and steal him away, and tell the people, 'He has been raised from the dead,' and the last deception would be worse than the first." 65 Pilate said to them, "You have a guard of soldiers; go, make it as secure as you can."

Twice in during this odd kind of Holy Week I heard a preacher say that because of the quarantine, because of the pandemic, we are Easter people living in a Good Friday world. That we usually are people able to embrace the possibilities of life and thus it is easier to proclaim hope and joy to the world and ourselves on a daily basis. But now, the shadow of death hangs over us like never before. We hide in the darkness of our homes, afraid of normal human contact because of what might overcome us or those we love, or the vulnerable among us. 

I understand their point, and might have made one like it myself had I been still attempting to preach to a scattered congregation through technological means. I agree that this shadow darkens our existence in such a profound way that we are not even fully aware of it until we find ourselves staring into space, or with an ache in our hearts that we can’t really explain even to ourselves. The symptoms of depression seem all too evident around us and within us. 

Maybe it is because of my new role, one that makes me an observer, a participant in worship rather than a proclaimer, but that didn’t ring quite true even as I heard it coming through my television on a livestream feed from my church here in Nashville. True, but not completely true. It wasn’t until much later in the darkness of the night that another metaphor came to mind. I was watching the news before going to bed on Good Friday night. The weather person was warning us about storms to come. Not the next day, but the day after that. Strong storms, bands of storms, three maybe four bands would roll through our area all day that day, starting early in the morning and then continuing throughout the day. The danger, she reported sternly, was that these bands were far enough apart that the temperature could begin to rise in between the fronts. When the temperature rises before a cold front, the air begins to circulate. If it rose enough before dropping in the trough of the front, tornadoes could form. High winds certainly, maybe hail, and lots of rain. Flood level rains. That’s our Easter forecast. Her advice? First decide where in the house we should go when it gets really bad. Second, have the egg hunt on Saturday, it’ll be a nicer day.

When I was in the parish, I struggled with local traditions in many places. Easter egg hunts are fun and active and a family occasion. I have no problems with egg hunts. Even enjoyed chatting with the Easter bunny in between her hopping around delighting children on a green lawn that sunny day. My problem was a part of me thought we shouldn’t have them until Easter. Not on Palm Sunday, or the Saturday before Palm Sunday, or, and this one was the hardest for me, on Holy Saturday. 

I pulled out all the Gospel descriptions of Holy Saturday. There isn’t a lot there. Most of them don’t even mention it. Because it was the Sabbath all the good Jews would have been at home. Not working, not preparing a meal, not planning a funeral, just being at home. So, after they got the body down off the cross and carried it to the tomb late on Friday, as the sun was setting and the Sabbath was rolling in the like the tide, they went home. They washed their hands. They sat down. They said their prayers and they tried to eat the ritual meal that was prepared to welcome the Sabbath. The candles they lit seemed dimmer somehow, as if even that flame couldn’t pierce the gloom that settled in their souls. The prayers they prayed from memory sounded like a language they barely knew. Then they waited. For a long sleepless night and a dim silent day. They looked at the walls of their house as if it had become a prison trapping their hopes inside. They kept their distance from each other, no doubt. Social distance. So that no one would see their pain. Their shame. Their doubt. And they waited. Though if you were to ask them what they were waiting for, they wouldn’t have had a clue. 

Matthew says things happened on Saturday. Those Romans didn’t know a Sabbath from a Saturday. And wait, there were Priests and Pharisees there too, breaking the law to make sure that the lawbreaker didn’t have an escape clause worked out with his followers. They were the essential workers of the society. Doing the work that had to be done. Maybe they wore a mask so as not to be infected by the gentiles they spoke to on the Sabbath. Maybe it wasn’t after dark, Matthew just forgot what time it was. Maybe it didn’t matter to them, or to anyone that day. Maybe it didn’t feel like Sabbath to them. Even them.

I think we are living in Holy Saturday. It is an in between kind of existence. And even though we know how the story ends, there is still so much uncertainty before us right now. We don’t know when this will end, maybe soon, maybe not.  Maybe it will end only to begin again as the virus takes hold when we step out of our tombs, out of our waiting to greet the Risen Son. And what will be like when it ends. We keep saying “when things get back to normal.” But do we know what normal is any more? Will normal feel normal, or will there be a new normal? When my neighbor coughs will I flinch? When your co-worker sneezes will you say bless you or rush to spay down the tables and chairs? What will community be after this?

We don’t know. And maybe we’re afraid. Afraid of the fallout, the collapse of the economy, which was much more precarious than we realized. Afraid of the other, not just those across the water or across the border, but those across the street, or across the hall. Will we trust again? Will we live again. 

Holy Saturday was a quarantine of earth shattering proportions. It was a hinge day around which all of creation swung. When the world started over the next day, there was fear and great joy. And a proclamation. He is going before you. When we reenter the world after this Holy Saturday time, we can be assured He will be going before us. Thanks be to God.

Shalom,

Derek

Fraying at the Edges

If I have to be on one more Zoom call I’ll scream. OK, maybe that’s a little dramatic, but nonetheless, I’ve had my share. We are working from home, these days, as are many. Those who can. Us non-essentials. Side note: liquor stores are essential? Never mind. I was talking about Zoom meetings. They are great. Really. It’s almost like sitting in the same room. Except for almost everything. No, sorry. It is a way to connect. To see the faces of those you work with. To be able to talk some instead of just sending emails and trying to have a conversation but feeling a step or two behind. My daughter Maddie started a Weber family WhatsApp group. We’ve got some of the family on it. Others are boycotting, I think. Anyway, La Donna and my sister Tricia were trying to do family genealogy through the app last night and it was hilarious. Losing the reference and answering questions two texts up and forgetting what the subject was and having to repeat yourself because it was too hard to scroll up and find the thread again. I don’t know if anyone was any wiser after that long text conversation, but it was fun to watch. 

Zoom meetings. That’s that I wanted to talk about here. Zoom meetings. How did I get to WhatsApp and email? That’s the big problem with this work at home thing. Too many distractions. I’m trying to write and the cat sits in the hallway and yells at me because if I’m going to be home and interrupt her nap time, then by golly I might as well be useful and feed her. And if I try to ignore her she beats on the door. Well, the big one does, Dora. The little one gets up and walks across my keyboard. Hard to type when a cat is walking across your keyboard. At least I’m not La Donna. When we’re down stairs reading or watching TV and the little cat, Cato, short for Catastrophe, will get up on the back of her chair and chew on her hair. I guess I don’t have enough to chew. She doesn’t do that to me. Just climbs up on top of me and sticks her face in my face. Which is also how Dora will wake me up if I’m sleeping past get up time. She’ll just get on the bed and stick her furry cat face in my face. Try to sleep through that. Can’t be done. Trust me.

Zoom meetings. I haven’t had a zoom meeting with my cats, or the dog for that matter. The dog has learned a new trick. Again, because we’re home all the time, he has to go outside more often. At least he says he has to go outside more often. But in fact he’s figured out that every time he goes outside he gets a cookie when he comes back in. But we’re now wise to his game, so we only give him a half a cookie. Which means he now does it twice as often. Who’s winning here, I can’t tell.

Zoom meetings. My original point, was that I thought the other day that someone should have taken a screen shot of our zoom meetings from the beginning of this quarantine thing. When we began it was truly like we were in our office, meeting in the little conference room night across the hallway. We were bright eyes and frankly a little excited about the change and the possibilities of working at home and yet still staying connected. Technology seemed like a gift from God that was here to make sure that we didn’t lose a sense of community, that we were reminded that we were on the same team, working on the same projects, a part of the same church body. We knew we were the lucky ones, able to take what we were doing and without too much upset and begin working remotely. It was a good thing. 

But then as the days and then the weeks progressed, it went from being a good thing, to being a necessary thing. We were trying to keep producing the content that pastors and churches were needing, some of which they asked for, some of which they didn’t know they needed. But we, and a whole lot of folks, just kept pushing out content. Articles, podcasts, reflections, liturgy, conversations, questions, lots and lots of questions. Some of them were of the “have you thought about this” variety, others were “are you sure you want to do that” and a few were “don’t you want to rethink this whole thing?” To make sure we were asking the right questions, we had to check in, with each other and with others. Zoom meetings.

Then other departments, other teams began making suggestions about what our team ought to be doing. They want to be helpful, of course. I don’t question that. But it seemed like the piles were getting higher and the requests were getting harder, and the list of things to do that I left the office with a couple of weeks ago have now been neglected in favor of a million other things, it seems. And when we log on to the Zoom meeting I sometimes have to wait for someone else to speak so that I can know what this one is about. 

Zoom meetings. I look into the eyes of my team members and the others who have dialed in or logged on and the eyes seem just a little more glazed, the smiles a tad more forced. I’ve had to start combing my hair, you see. That sounds odd, I know. I keep my hair short, what’s left of it, yes thank you, so that I don’t have to comb it. But now it’s growing out and needs to be cut, but there’s this quarantine thing, maybe you’ve heard about it. So after my shower, I actually have to find a comb and comb it. 

And here’s the thing with Zoom meetings, not only do you get to see you teammates, your co-workers, but you see yourself. Right there on your computer screen. I keep trying to adjust the little built in camera to make myself look like I think I look rather than what I really look like. But so far that hasn’t worked. We’re all fraying around the edges. The tension of this unusual situation is getting to us. I get wounded by email that aren’t personal, I feel burdened by responsibilities that are implied if not directly given. We started this thing thinking it was going to be a week or two, then we’d be back to the office, back to the restaurants, back to school, back to sports, back to concerts, back to life before we knew it. Now it stretches before us like an abyss and the other side is obscured by the gray clouds of unknowing. 

And we can’t feel too sorry for ourselves, not really. We’ve got it easy. There are so many other suffering much worse than I am, than most of us reading this are. Businesses that might not reopen, workers wondering if they’ll be recalled, those for whom the promised stimulus, should it ever come, might not make a dent in the debt accruing. There are those on the front lines of the pandemic whose lives are at risk daily. There are populations who are so much more vulnerable and for whom we worry. And all of that makes us reluctant to admit our own stress, our own fears and anxiety. And yet it is real. It isn’t a weakness to admit we’re all fraying around the edges. 

Which is why we need to turn to praise. Praise, really? What about lament, that seems more appropriate. Yes, certainly, there is time and space for lament. Let it out. Offer it up. But one thing I’ve learned from the lament psalms is that always, almost always turn to praise. We need praise. We can’t live in lament this whole time. We can’t let lament be our only word, as real and as necessary as it is. We need praise.

One of my supervisors sent this video today. I put it on my Facebook page. I link it here, if I can. It’s worth looking at, if you haven’t seen it. And if you have, then watch again. It’s done by a group called “the Work of the People” which is the definition of liturgy. It’s called “Praise Song for the Pandemic” and written and read by Christine Valters Paintner, from Abbey of the Arts, music by Giants & Pilgrims. Please take a look. https://www.facebook.com/theworkofthepeople/videos/2606014466331448/?vh=e

And to accompany that thought, I’ll leave you one of my favorite passages of scripture, a reminder that no matter how great the struggle, we are never alone in that mess. There is a presence, there is a living hope. Sometimes it is hard to sense, so that’s when faith kicks in. We know that God is with us. Even on zoom meeting. Even at home. Even apart. Even afraid. God is with us. We are not alone.

Isaiah 43:1-3a But now thus says the LORD, he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. 2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. 3 For I am the LORD your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.

Shalom,

Derek